My two beautiful rocks

I love you both so much. You are so precious to me.

How and when (and where) we met was so serendipitous and in such a short space of time, but you are two of the most important people in my life. It doesn't matter we're not related by blood. That means fuck all to me.

You have always, always been there. Always. You've been with and 'seen' me at both ends and you never left me. You never stopped listening. When others decided to not listen and leave me, you never did. You held my hand and walked with me. You still listen to me. You still walk with me. You never judged me. You never distrusted me. You never not believed me. You may not have always agreed with me, but you accepted me. You still do. I feel as if you take me exactly for who I am and that is so rare to find in people.

I feel so incredibly lucky to have such rarities in my life who not only do I love, but who reciprocate.

I would like more but when you express your love without me asking for it, it's so organic and special and at times, unexpected and surprising. And sometimes it means so, so much, especially when I need it. Just knowing how much you love me can make a huge difference to me.

I want you both in my life until the day I die. I want you to be with me at the big moments in my life like my wedding. You will be standing next to me if I get married. I want you to be amongst the first to see my child or children after and if they are born. I would consider you to be his/her/their legal guardians. You will know if I get divorced. You will know when I change jobs. You will know when I move. You know about the important things in my life and will know about them. You also know about the small things in my life. Life is made up of the big and small shit.

You have given me so much more than other people I've had in my life since I was born and/or who knew me intimately. You have never, ever hurt me. I can't imagine there ever being a time where you are not a part of my life.

In fact, sometimes you are my definition of happiness and you make me feel that from my head down to the tips of my toes.

I have needed you so much, I think I have needed you less, but I'm still trying to improve. The overneed comes and goes in waves, but I'm trying and need to keep it even, like a see-saw.

You both know you're really important to me and that I love you deeply, but 'stating' it on my blog where people can read it is making it 'public' and you totally deserve it.

I love you infinitely SP and SA,

- A.M.